An Important Reminder (and an update, I guess)

I’m sorry I’m not giving many details of what is going on with The Red Sox Fan and I. Unfortunately, I have no clue what is happening, hence why I haven’t been able to put it into words. Things started out so great with us and I feel like all the good things have gotten lost somewhere in the mix. I feel like I keep waiting. Waiting for him to realize he wants to be with me, waiting for him to make an effort, waiting for him to be ready. I feel like I’m waiting for the person I met in January to come back.

On our first date, it felt like we were the only two people in the world talking for hours. On our second date, we had such a fun time, playing putt-putt, joking around with each other, talking nonstop. When we were sitting in my car at the end of that night, I remember feeling like I could have stayed there forever…just the two of us, sitting in my car, talking about country music and trying to get the courage to kiss each other goodnight. Even those first few nights where we just cooked dinner or watched a movie at his house, I had so much fun and felt so comfortable and happy.

I don’t know what to think. I’m confused, disappointed and at the same time, not really ready to let go yet. I’m also trying my very best to not let this get to me. If he just isn’t that into me, which he clearly isn’t, the most important thing is that I can’t let that get me down, which is why I am reminding myself and you all of this tonight:

Just because one person can't see your worth, doesn't mean it doesn't exist.